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i have never really considered myself to be a hard-core smoker. i'll share a couple with my best friend after school, bum a couple off of my we're-only-friends-because-you-smoke, occasionally tear apart the house trying to find my dad's... but ahh, addiction, it only does get better with time.

i'm in chicago with my mother for thanksgiving break, which happens to mean all of my cancer-stick sources are an hour away. i found a whole one near starbucks and promised myself i'd make it last a day or two- then proceeded to suck that thing down like my brother does my mother's breast milk. i picked up the sad little butt and stared at it for about five minutes, all the while muttering quotes from star wars and using all the jedi force i could muster to undo what i had done. alas, it appears i am not jedi material. i walked around the city frantically, begging strangers for anything, the last drag, i didn't care if they had hepatitis b, no, i was on a mission. finally, after about an hour of practically kissing the feet of strangers, i ran home. i spent a good half hour emptying every the pockets of every piece of clothing i owned, ending up with a thumb-sized pile of iffy looking tobacco. and, just as i thought i might be saved, i come to the realization that i am out of rolling papers. it seemed the universe was laughing at me in that moment. i looked in every drawer, vent, cupboard and box in the house before i saw it- a crumpled up receipt for "a farewell to arms". i flew downstairs, grabbed the jar of honey and created something that looked more like a bad paper-mache project than a cigarette. saved at last. that is, until i dropped it down the drain.

and now i am sitting here at my computer, fake-ashing a pen, and wondering when i got to this point. oh, addiction, the things you make people do.


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Madeleine Ansted
Artist | Student | Varied
United States
i am lost in a reality of my own creation. i tend to follow my head instead of my heart. i yearn for the day i reach enlightenment, a day at which my soul finally finds peace. i am flawed, but alive. i am infinite.

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beatlesmaniagrl Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I want to thank you for being my watcher for 2 years, give or take a few months.Huggle! 
LoraniaSanteria Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
hello your words are great

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LORETANA Featured By Owner May 20, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :party: I wish you only the positive impressions of this year!
sedge-s Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the favourites
DubuGomdori Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2014
The great goddess Isis grant you a long life for the fave,…. Thank you very much.
oaklungs Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013
thank you so much for the favourites :thanks:
skeegoedhart Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
TY for the Moon Fave
MiloWare Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the :+fav:
Is-lnds Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2013
thank you
SourAir Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the favourite on 'The List'! :)
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